I used to believe that if I said my prayers, read a few verses of scripture, and went to church and fulfilled my callings, that was a Christ-centered life.
But all my trust was in people my husband, sister, bishops, friends, and then I used God to “fill in the gaps.”
Now I believe something different about God and about the role He plays in my life. God first isn’t just read, pray, and write first in the morning. Those things are important and there are specific and special blessings attached to them. But it’s even more than that. It’s that I make space and allow Heavenly Father to be omnipresent in my life. In everything. He is in the details. He is in the general occurrences. I trust Him and His boundaries, I trust His way, I trust in His path and seek Him in my daily walk. All throughout the day.
But I’m realizing more and more Heavenly Father won’t force Himself into my day. He won’t interfere with my agency. So I have to invite Him on my walk, every day. And surrender my fears, nearly every day or every other day. It’s hard, and some days I just feel like sitting down in the middle of my path and not moving. Which He allows! He doesn’t stop me if I don’t’ want to progress on a given day. But He gives me strength to get up and go further than I could alone when I invite Him to walk with me again.
I have always loved Heavenly Father. And I have always sought a relationship with my Savior. But over the last few months my focus has been on a relationship with my Heavenly Father, and it is sweeter than any other I have ever known. He really does know us and love us!
“Let him that is ignorant learn wisdom by humbling himself and calling upon the Lord his God, that his eyes may be opened that he may see, and his ears opened that he may hear.”(D&C 136:32)